<<Dear Christy,>>
2004-04-19 - 9:25 p.m.

I can't get the pictures of you & I together out of my mind.

I can't stop hearing your voice, your laugh

...or erase the image I have of you in the hospital with all of those tubes coming in and out of your body...

...or the sound of the life support maching pushing the air in and out of your lungs and making your heart beat...

I re-live our last conversation over and over in my mind. It's the one and only time I can recall not telling you I love you before I hung up the phone.

..and I kissed your forehead and cried. I told you over and over how much I love you & how special you are to me. I prayed for a miracle. I begged you to hold on..that your dad & grandma were on the way to see you...

The five hour car ride was the longest ride of my life. Shawna slept half the way and cryed uncontrollably the other half. We were all hoping that this was some sick joke...that they were wrong...

...when I saw Chev I knew the seriousness of the situation..we were immediately led to your room.. "She's not going to last much longer... you better get in there and say your goodbye's..."... as soon as I saw you.. I knew you were gone.. I couldn't control the tears any longer...

Time is slowly moving on...but my heartache and lifetime of memories will never fade away... I would do anything to see you alive one more time.. I miss you so much!

Love your best friend & "aunt",

Stephanie

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